Near death, rebirth and Enlightenment

Alive, I am reborn again...An open tunnel, a decision to be made

Enter here and see your life, see things as they are…
…but I tell you this. I cannot promise you that you will return.


-Can I make a deal, pull me back regardless if I want to stay or not?

-It doesn’t work that way…


On my deathbed, already covered with dust, dust in my mouth and dust in my stomach. The roots of mother Earth inside my guts.


I see you all come in a procession, all the people I’ve ever met, all the faces I have ever seen, everyone that I ever knew, there you walk, side by side, two and two. Talking, chatting away, dressed in black, here for my funeral.

But it is not a sad occasion, you all seem happy, like you are here to celebrate me somehow. I am the only one here who seems confused, but your faces give me comfort. I give in, I observe.

I observe a series of events that flash before my eyes.

This is who you are, the images say. These are your relations, these are the entanglements that you choose to identify yourself through and this is what it feels to your soul, your spirit, your undying self to be identified this way…

The pain that runs through the existence of my being when the roots of my sufferings are shown shake my very essence.


-No! Don’t remove these attachments yet, they are what make me me!

-You have to let go…

-I’ll go back and fix it, I don’t want to go feeling unfulfilled, it hurts too much. I don’t want to have wasted my chance this time around…



The line of people, family and friends, leads up to a point where I see my brother holding his child in his arms, his wife by his side, congratulating me, congratulating us.

I look so happy, you are there by my side, we look so happy. Your face is not there, it is just a hole, thank God I cannot see your face yet, but I feel that you are happy too...

This I want, this I can go back to…

The dust and roots inside of me spreads their tendrils, deep into the mother that once gave birth to me, now back I go. But from the ashes I see new life emerge, the roots they sink deep underground, replacing the old ones, and in my place, new life takes form. It stretches its leafs and unfolds itself towards the light. I was given a second chance, a new life in this body, be strong.